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(The image links to a PDF.) I'm in a fairytale mood this afternoon. Don't forget to add to the five word fairytale.
7/28/2013 | 0 comments | offline
I was home alone yesterday, it was one of those days when I should've been around people. My mind drifted into unhappy places but I think I have a pretty decent plan for making the rest of my thirties as enjoyable as possible.
I realise I need to readjust my frame of mind. I feel like I know what's best for me but trusting my feelings is difficult. I read marandaelizabeth.com yesterday, I could relate to a lot of things they said. But what really struck me was an interview with Dave Cave where Maranda made a comment about being a better person. This is something we want for ourselves but Maranda asked What does a better person look like to you?
I'm not sure what a better person looks like but I'm sure I'm not a better person. What small things can I do to be better? Because in all truthfulness it'll be a decade before I could have the life I want for myself. What can I do so I don't lose motivation like I have in previous years? Often, I get frustrated with all the difficulties I face so I give up and go somewhere else. What can I do to ensure that doesn't happen?
Also, what can I do in my day-to-day life to keep on track? I'm a workaholic (when I do have a job) but in my evenings home alone I feel empty. How do I get through these times?
I went for a walk today. It was tiring but the exercise felt good. I've become too reclusive.
I stopped in a charity shop and found a Momiji doll for 99p and I saw my favourite gallery is looking for a parttime assistant who doesn't need any experience! Two of my old friends from Dorset also got in contact this weekend. Pesto was half price in my local shop too, so I'm looking forward to a yummy dinner. Froyo time this evening.
My panties match my background image:
7/27/2013 | 0 comments | offline
My thoughts are with you today. Happy Birthday. You still mean so much to me.
7/26/2013 | 0 comments | offline
Yep. I'm connected again.
I also got the chance to try out my app. What a failure. My app's not even an app. It's just links to multiple pages in a fancy border that looks like an app. Still, I'm finding it pretty helpful, it doesn't add anything to the IAM experience but I like having all my favourites to hand. Maybe I don't have download enabled or maybe I need to amend my app. I don't know. I give up.
I was supposed to start a job today. I got a phonecall yesterday evening asking me to start at an advertising company this morning. When I turned up it was just filling in forms, an interview and a tour. The company was exactly like another advertising company I spent a week working for a few years ago. I'm pretty distrustful of anyone who wants to enter that industry. Admittedly, the money was good and they bought my lunch every day but it was way too complicated and shady for my liking. It was also a total sausage fest, extroverted sausages at that.
On the brightside, the fear pushed me to apply for a bunch of FE jobs today. I wrote my personal statement like my life depended on it! I gave it 120%. I also found London Ink series 2 in a pawn shop today, which I'll watch later as I try to wind down.
I got my head shaved again. I hate going to the barbers but normal clippers don't seem to be as strong or neat as professionals. I always seen to end up with a barber who spends ages clipping my hairline or using a comb to get stray hairs all the same length. It's always awkward when a grade 2 all over takes twenty minutes. You can see people waiting with a WTF? expression on their face.
I'm planning to go to a couple of conventions next year. I added them to events. I have no confirmed plans ATM but having something to look forward to makes the difficult times feel less permanent.
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