"There is no coming to consciousness without pain"

Well, I just got here. That's not really true anymore, but all this still feels new and exploration-worthy to me.
I'm not really good with this whole 'talk about myself' affair, so if you'd want to know what, why and how I got into all of this, please read the story of my personal ascension.

I definitely seem to have developed a passion for body suspension. And because this community seems to be THE place to be to live that passion, I decided to join your little world here. I want to learn as much as I can about it.

No Forum - but I like getting messages. And don't be afraid of the tracking thingie; it doesn't bite.

Events I`d want to attend this year:

My favourite pastime when I`m around here:



two hundred and thirty-three..
6/29/2010 | 0 comments

that, according to the time recording printout I received, is  the number of "overtime" hours I have accumulated since Jan.1st. And that does not even include any of the work stuff I do from home nor the rather extensive travel I do. I do love my job, and don't have an issue with working more than the 40 hours/week I'm supposed to - but too much is too much, and I'm a "MrNiceGuy" type of person who feels the need to always satisfy anybody's requests, but now I'm feeling exploited big time. It's not the lacking compensation (I'm not getting paid anything for 'overtime'), it's that bean-counter mentality of the upper echeleons around here who seem to be oblivious to the situation - we're down to to three people in the department from five, all that with responsibilities added at the same time. I feel so overworked and just tired ever since getting back from my vacation two months ago just to find a huge-ass pile of work on my desk, and I desperately want to go back to a point where I don't have to rely on externally administered substances to feel happy and euphoric  - especially since that brings only short-term relief and has too many side effects. So there's going to be some changes one way or the other pretty soon.
End work rant. Feels good to write that down and have it out, even when nobody will read it.
Eh... I'm feeling strangely comfortable in here lately. I'm a very 'private' person, and writing about personal stuff (even more so, putting it out on the internet publicly) used to be a concept I dismissed as "not for me". But I credit this community in general and one of you in particular with changing this attitude, and I have to say it does have its merits. Funny, though, seeing how (almost) everyone else laments that it's getting quiet around here lately - I definitely seem to prefer the more intimate and obscure atmosphere.
In better news, personal issues are, well, better. Somewhat. And I got all my data back from the crash I had. Had to have this done professionally, but it's all restored and accounted for now. Hopefully I'll have some time to sort through all the pictures (I still owe y'all a few updates!) soon.
Oh, and I do manage to get away from the desk from time to time. Attended another music festival two weeks ago, so it's not all bad. Some pictures for you to enjoy (Rammstein definitely delivers most awesome shows!), and I had a very good time there. The guys with the pickup bed pool were our neighbors at the campsite - that thing was awesome! I rented an RV for the weekend, and, yes, that's the way to go for events like this and will definitely be repeated for Coachella next year.

Rammstein did an awesome show with enough pyrotechnics to start WWIII. I actually had to retreat back from the my position near the stage because it just got eyebrow-searing hot.(as usual, click through to enlarge pics...)

  Love the "Crowdsurfing verboten" sign... and there's no such thing as bad weather :). Friday was hot and sunny, Sat. was cloudy and just right, and Sunday it rained...


And I went on a mountain bike trip to the Alps last weekend - this is just a bit more than one hour's drive from where I live. That was the first time I took my foldable, not-really-quite-fit-for this-task (skinny slicky road tires!) mountain bike to the test, and it held up better than expected. Fun times!


geeky stuff..
6/5/2010 | 0 comments

In the process of rebuilding all my computer stuff that was fried/killed last weekend. Luckily, I could return that expensive SSD, so I didn't spend the money for nothing. I love SSDs, they are so fast and all-around good. Could not imagine going back to "normal" drives now. Plus, it looks like the data on my NAS can be salvaged - added my old drives into the replacement unit which arrived today, and it's currently rebuilding the RAID. Well, we'll see what's coming out of that, but I'm confident! So I might only have lost a week of emails and files on the laptop drive instead of almost everything
Speaking of which, I got a brand-spanking new Dell now. Sure, it's really fast (what, quad-core CPU on a laptop?) and has all the bells and whistles you expect from a current top-of-the-line business machine - but I don't particularly like it. Never been a fan of widescreen displays - they're good for watching movies, but where's the horizontal space? And the keyboard as well as general build quality is really shitty compared with my old IBM. It's flexing and the shiny surface will scratch in no time.. Due to the keyboard layout being different from the Thinkpads I've been working with for over a decade now, I constantly keep hitting the wrong keys when typing, too. "FN" "C" opens some networking control instead of copying stuff! Argh! Can't wait to get mine back!

Feeling a bit better in general, too. Just letting things settle for awhile seems to help. Still a bit down, but nothing I can't manage.
Plus, the weather has finally caught up with the season and it's all nice, sunny and warm instead of cold, rainy and plain depressing. About time and just right in time for the outdoor concert/festival season - there's a few coming up soon I'm really looking forward to attending: Greenfield festival next weekend, and AC/DC on Tuesday!

Hey, I might just continue this for awhile. Writing things down has proven to be helpful in dealing with things, and it's not as awkward as I thought... so why not use this space for what's it was intended? (thanks for the inspiration and the guidance, you know who you are!)

And I could not resist - a lot of (pricey) geeky goodness:

some days I just want to end...
5/30/2010 | 0 comments

No, this is not the Dallas suscon picture update. Unfortunately not. Laptop royally shit the bed today - a power surge (caused by lightning from a nbearby thunderstorm) fried the innards for good. The bad thing is that the NAS array where I have my image backup was attached to the thing at the time and is also dead, as is the brand-new 256GB SSD ($700, ouch!) I just put in there last week where all the images are on... It's gonna be a ton of work getting everything operational back again. Not looking forward to that.

Feel like shit, too and don't really have the desire to engage in any kind of social activity right now. You see, I'm not really what you would call an open, outgoing personality. It takes a lot for me to be emphatic with others, open up to and build a trust relationship with them. Well, there is someone to whom I did. And now I've been askedtold I should not be (as) involved and distance myself. Feels like having been dumped by text message. And I can't even be mad at the other party (and I am not. Really.) as there were reasons that I have to accept as valid. This makes it even harder, as there's nobody to project the blame on. Still, it f*cking hurts. Time will tell, though, and I hopeknow things will get better, as they always do. I really do not want to lose this friendship, it means a lot to me.

Anyway, I'm going to curl up on the sofa, kill the rest of the bottle of Havana Club Añejo 15 Años I just opened (hmmm....gooood stuff) get wasted (yeah... about time!) and watch a couple Dennis Hopper movies in memoriam. In case you didn't know, he died on Friday. He was one of my all-time favorite actors who made even the trashiest B-movie worth watching with his presence.
Hey, and maybe I wake up tomorrow and all of this just turns out to be a bad dream, who knows? Yay for drunken posts, I guess I'd never have written this sober... maybe I really should blow my mind to kingdom come a bit more often, it definitely feels good now. And seeing that things seem to be pretty quiet around here nowadays (hey, ever tried to search "nose piercing" or "body suspension" on google - BME doesn't even turn up on the first page of results! :o ) privacy isn't that much of a concern any more, so, yeah, I think I can risk going a bit more personal.
Cheers, and here's to a nice Labor Day/Spring Bank Holiday!

I wish I had words, man. I wish I had words...
(Dennis Hopper, Apocalypse Now)

Blame it on Eyjafjallajökull....
5/27/2010 | 1 comments

Ever since getting home from my involuntarily extended vacation I've been so swamped with work and rather pressing family business that I never found the time to update. Sorry -  I know there's a few of you whom I have promised this to for a long time, but courtesy of said Eyjafjallajökull volcano, my flight home got delayed by almost a week and you cannot even begin to imagine the pile of work on my desk after almost four weeks of absence...
Well, today I  read what Justin had to say about how the whole Dallas roadtrip adventure started and I decided it was about time to go through my pictures and start....
I flew in to LAX on March 30, arrived there in the evening, collected the rental van that was to be my home for the duration of the trip, picked up Aurora and Justin and we took off east, heading for Dallas where we all wanted to attend the 2010 Dallas suscon. Been looking forward to this event for one year and things were finally happening!

The following is stolen from Justin's page (thanks for saving me the work! :))

Mar 30 2010
10:57pm Bastian and Aurora arrive in Long Beach, CA
11:50pm 28 Miles from Palm Springs, CA
Mar 31 2010
3:36am Stop in Phoenix, AZ for gas
6:20am We pull into a beautiful rest stop. Bastian runs around with Sabrina (the dog) I try bouldering out side of a gym for the first time. We all snap some photos then it's back on the road

and here's said pictures - yes, it was really beautiful. And I guess Sabrina and me took to each other right there  (click through to embiggen)

8:48am Stop in a small town in New Mexico. Bastian and I discover there are no juice bars in the area, only a lot of old people.
2:43pm Entering the final hours of our drive, Bastian refers back to the driving techniques of the autobahn, pushing our rented minivan to 110mph. This is still sort of slow for him...
editor's note: 110 is not only "sort of" slow, it's freaking slow (my car goes 155, and as we don't have such stupid speed limits I'm going that regularly). Oh, and for the record: I did not get one single ticket or get pulled over once on the whole 6,500 miles I/we drove on that trip! And the being flashy-thingied in PHX so far hasn't manifested in anything either. :)

3:00pm We reach Pecos, TX
4:43pm Big Spring, TX
6:00pm Merkel, TX (200 miles from Dallas)
7:09pm Quick break to fill up the tank. Aurora makes her way from the drivers seat to the back with Sabina, then we're back on the road. 115 miles from Dallas, Bastian slows down for a construction zone and for the first time in 18 hours a car passes us
7:14pm The construction zone ends and the second lane is opened back up. "Don't mess with Texas," Bastian chuckles as he hits the gas and speeds passed the car that had passed us a couple miles prior. We have half an hour before sunset, I'll have to wait till tomorrow to see Dallas in daylight
7:30pm 80 MILES TO DALLAS!!!!!
8:21pm "So are we in Dallas yet?" "Yes, as you might have noticed, Dallas is fucking big."

Nothing much to add to that... Anyway, we took possession of "my" house which I rented for the week and conked out pretty soon.

To be continued.... SOON! (yeah, I feel guilty...)

2010 Dallas Suscon
4/2/2010 | 0 comments

on top until April 2 - new entries below

So it seems like I get to help out a bit with organizing the 2010 Dallas suscon, which is scheduled to happen from April 2 to April 4. As I have gotten a sweet deal on a house and apparently got everyone from and to the airport all safely last time I am now responsible for accommodations and transportation for the 2010 edition.
Well, today I got a call from the agent who was supposed to rent me a bunch of vacation homes and told me that I'd need to decide and commit NOW or everything would be snatched up by someone else who was looking to accommodate his wedding guests. So that's what I did - signed the paperwork and wired the money, and now there's space for ca. thirty people.
UPDATE: Everything's set up quite nicely - all the details are now available on the event info page over at suspension.org: http://suspension.org/2010payandstay.htm.

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