1/7/2021 | 0 comments

Posted my 2020 thing twice and I see no option to delete, so this will be something else later

North of the Pier/ South of the Pier
1/7/2021 | 0 comments

1. What did you do in 2020 that you'd never done before?

Roadtripped to Zion National Park and Bryce Canyon, visited Evermore Park, grew my own vegetablescollected unemployment, was locked down due to a global pandemic that seemingly hit my country the hardest.


2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I was resolved to exercise more, and did that.


3. Did anyone close to you give birth?



4. Did anyone close to you die?

Lost a cousin


5. What countries did you visit?

No other countries (what with the global pandemic and all), but I did see a bit of Southern Utah, which is remarkably gorgeous.


6. What would you like to have in 2021 that you lacked in 2020?

Concerts and festivals, please god just give me concerts and festivals again.


7. What dates from 2020 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Maybe Halloween, which was a full moon night spent at Evermore in Pleasant Grove, Utah on a trip with my best friend and the best dog ever. Also early November, thanks to the nailbiting election.


8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Got the attic going, made half of the yard presentable, and began a regular workout routine which I’ve stuck with.


9. What was your biggest failure?

Being even more socially isolated than ever, but then again, so have most people lately.


10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I don’t think I was sick at all. I love this mask wearing business so damn much.


11. What was the best thing you bought?

Adjustable dumbbells. And an adult product.


12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Everyone who came out to vote for Democrats in the US


13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Republicans’ and conspiracy theorists’


14. Where did most of your money go?

Figuring out Sabrina’s seizures and medicating for them.


15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Seeing Danny Elfman’s name on the Coachella poster.


16. What song will always remind you of 2020?

“Mars for the Rich,” or really anything by King Gizzard.


17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

I think sadder. The end of 2019 seemed more hopeful than the end of 2020.


18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Anything besides just Redditing all day long.


19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

Driving angry. Honestly driving at all. Those weeks spent at home were blissful.


20. How did you be spend Christmas?

I’m finally changing the tense of this question. Now it’s past. And I spent it with mom and family. Actually had the day off for once.  It was nice.


21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?



22. Did you fall in love in 2019?



23. What music festival lesson did you learn this year?

There’s no guarantee they’ll even happen.


24. What was your favorite TV program?

Community, The Great British Baking Show


25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Pandemic denialists and anti-maskers.


26. What was the best book you read?

I read most of Lolita and that was it because I suck.


27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Kyle Watson or 100 gecs


28. What did you want and get?

A fairly deadly global pandemic, pecs and shoulders, another season at Canyonback with Sabrina, the current president not voted into a second term, and to see Danny Elfman’s name on the Coachella lineup poster.


29. What did you want and not get?

To actually see Danny Elfman at Coachella, a global pandemic that didn’t affect me personally, more dick.


(29.5. What did you not want and not get?



30. What was your favorite film of this year?

I didn’t watch many, but “Portrait of a Lady on Fire” was quite good.


31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Turned 38. Lockdown essentially started that day. Took the dogs to Canyonback for the last hike we’d have for a couple months. Shroomed when I got home. It was the only trip I took this year.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

People banding together to protect one another and the government lending its support so we could get back to some semblance of normal life, particularly if that means live music exists again.


33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2019?

Plain black t-shirts


34. What kept you sane?

Mostly The Great British Baking Show, but also working out and hrt.


35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Stracey Abrams


36. What political issue stirred you the most?

The goddamn literal Nazis in my country


37. Who did you miss?

Grandparents, Connie and Deez


38. Who was the best new person you met?

Didn’t meet anyone new


39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2020:

I can’t trust my fellow Americans when things go bad.


40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Somebody find me somebody to love

-          Queen

Elara/ Chief Peak
1/5/2021 | 0 comments


Oops, sorry. Been very lazy about writing. I haven't even done the post that I look forward all year to doing. Next time.

Anyway, had mom for Christmas, which was great. We made cookies and went on walks, and she even got up early to join me and the dogs for a hike at Canyonback on Xmas eve. She brought down more heirlooms and old family paperwork, and we had a good time going through some of that stuff.

Day after Christmas I saw Scott. His car died and he's yet to replace it, so I took him to Home Depot and Target for things he wanted to buy.

Didn't visit dad, and he didn't mention it. I hope it means he feels like he needs to stay safe.

I still don't do much aside from hikes and weekly grocery runs. Got an email last night that someone who was in the building has had to quarantine, but that's all the info we got.

Mom got me hair clippers, so I gave myself an atrocious haircut. But it feels better, and I always wear a hat anyway. 

Things are otherwise going along. 



Wizards and Gargoyles/ Down on Thunder Island
12/18/2020 | 1 comments

Saturday, October 14, 2017

Desert Daze day two

Let’s see what memories I can dredge up here, three plus years on.

(Something I forgot to mention is that one of the first things I did on day one was sit in some cactus and then try to wipe it off of my pants, thusly lodging dozens of tiny hair-like spines in my hand from the get-go. It was no bueno.)

Had a lazy morning, for certain. Took the dogs out for a romp on the outskirts of the camping area.

Didn’t get into the festival until 1:30 or so, to catch some of Frankie and the Witch Fingers. Wandered from there, catching bits and pieces from sets split among the three stages: Jesika von Rabbit, Winter, Mr Elevator, King Woman (I later saw them open for Alcest, and just realized it seeing their name now that I’d seen them before), Camera, Dahga Bloom. Everyone was good.

Caught a bit of Thurston Moore, whom I hadn’t seen before (never saw Sonic Youth alive, alas). He was good. Went back to the RV after that, to get the dogs out and eat something and take my drug of choice for the evening.

Caught most of Jjuujjuu’s set after that, quite enjoying their swirling psychedelic guitar work.

Sleep was after that, and they were one of my top acts for the weekend. I went to my usual spot for the weekend, off to the side and up the hill a bit, sitting on a fallen Joshua tree trunk. They started as the evening set it, their huge riffs filling the little natural amphitheater. They played the album Holy Mountain in its entirety, which includes a track of what sounds like them just slowly fiddling around on guitars. Sitting through that felt absolutely interminable at the time, and it was legit making me angry that they wouldn’t stop messing around and get back to playing their great tracks. I just did not get it at all (making me retrospectively think it must’ve been acid I took that night, as that’s the sort of mindset it gives me). Minus that section, the performance was just perfect.

Went back to the RV after that to relax a bit. The night before, the music from the venue had been really loud out in the camping area, but it felt much quieter that night. I speculated with Bastian that there must have been a noise complaint, but he seemed to think he was still hearing the music just as loudly. Had a beer, then got back in time to catch the very end of Terry Riley & Ryan Riley.

From there to King Gizzard & the Lizard Wizard. I had seen them before at Coachella, but that set had been in the middle of the hot ass day. Holy cow was this band built for night. I sat off to the side once more, and soon after taking a seat, this young woman stood in front of me, a bit away, but close enough that her wild gyrations are going to forever be tied to that performance for me. It gave it a bit of color, I suppose. She was a great dancer, but holy God that band really opened my eyes to their absolute amazingness that night. Just playing on and on, rarely breaking, all nine or ten or whatever of them. And it was a lot of Murder of the Universe/ Nonagon Infinity/ Microtonal Banana stuff, so just my absolute favorites. I seriously fell in love with this band on this night, and they’ve been a favorite of mine since.

After that, I went and grabbed a chair in the space they’d set up behind the Block stage and closed my eyes to listen to John Cale’s performance. I’ve never really gotten Cale, but it felt important to me to listen to a set of his while I had the chance, and the comfy chair was a perfect place to relax and hear the set. It was mostly okay, but he played a couple of tracks that I felt the need to track down after.

After Cale was Iggy Pop. I had just seen Pop over the summer at FYF and hadn’t been very impressed, honestly (it was, unfortunately, a daytime set) and had been close to the stage for that one, so I was okay with not going over until Cale was done. Oh my God, there were so many people! It looked to be about three times the people that I’d ever seen in the venue before. I figured they must’ve all come from LA just for Iggy. So I initially couldn’t figure out where to be, and eventually ended up way at the top of a hill alongside one of the walls for a Frank Lloyd Wright cabin that was at the tippy top of the bowl.

My God, Iggy Pop was amazing. So different from FYF. Dude must not wake up until night time, because he was the polar opposite of that other performance, just filled with that energy that made him famous back in the day. The set was also amazing, the band just ripping through the Stooges classics. Pop was in absolute command of the whole thing, and spent at least two songs just walking through the audience (the festival, particularly at this location, was much looser about boundaries than any other I’ve been to). He was mind-blowingly good, and I felt like I was able to have that sort of experience watching him that he’s famous for.

Ended the night with a bit of Twin Peaks and a bit of Tortoise, but you can’t blame me for not recalling much of those after that Iggy Pop performance.


Dankful/ Seco
12/1/2020 | 0 comments


Finally got my annual birthday tattoo. I'd tried back in March, of course, but lockdown put a stop to that. 

I had to find a new artist this year as the one I'd used for fifteen years moved back home to Detroit last summer. I believe I'd seen an piece I liked on Reddit and then looked into the shop. All of the artists looked to do great work, so I went into 10 Thousand Foxes and figured whoever was there would be good.

The artist there was Andrés Brown. Ironically he would have been the wrong choice for the typical kind of tattoo that I get (large and colorful), but his style (tiny detailed greyscale) fit this one perfectly. I put down $100 for deposit, and then circumstances had me waiting eight months.

The design is based on the shark-shaped disco ball that hangs in the Yuma tent and is another addition to the area around my right knee that I have dedicated to Coachella. Specifically, it's on the back of my leg, under the knee. 

Given his style, I suspected that Andrés would have a light hand, and he did. He was also very fast, and had initially quoted me three hours, but it was only an hour and a half of work. Alas, that didn't change the price as quoted, and it is by far the most I've paid per square inch of tattoo. Like scandalously expensive for me. 

He put dermafilm on the fresh tattoo, which was a first for me. Told me to peal it off the next day, and gave me a rectangle of it to put on for one more day of protection. 

We didn't talk much at all (he's from Spain, but seems comfortable conversing in English). He put on Travis Scott on while working, which I found appropriate given he was supposed to headline Coachella this year. 

Healing seems fine so far (it's been one week). This piece more than others seems like it won't look great until fully healed, given the detail and fine line work. 

Thursday I went to my dad's for Thanksgiving. His opinion is Covid be damned. He waited until I was there to tell me he's undergoing treatment for leukemia, and I'm not overly thrilled that he had me expose him to plague like this. I could tell right away something was odd, as he'd seemed to have aged considerably since I'd last seen him at the beginning of the year. 

Of course he doesn't want me to tell my siblings since they don't deserve to know in his mind, so now I have to bear this alone. 

The rest of the visit was fine. Sabrina came along, and we had a nice walk around the park Friday morning. Dad and I played about ten rounds of cribbage. I meant to tell him what I'm doing, but couldn't bring myself to, and instead left behind a card I had written in the spring but never sent. I haven't heard back yet, and don't know if he's read it. It is what it is. 

Called about my name change petition as I hadn't heard back yet, and it turns out they'd never sent out my notification for my court date, which is next week. So that's that. 

Been taking the dogs to Canyonback again. So thankful that Sabrina's well and still able to go.

I think that's it.




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